When the city goes silent, the ringing in my ears gets violent

I miss having school with you. And playing pool between classes and taking tests together and getting food after night class. You were just a nice ray of sunshine. 

You're also by far my favorite person to drink with. It just... Isn't nearly as fun when you aren't there to flirt with and share drinks. So no worries about me drinking too much now. At least until I'm actually 21. Then who knows

There's just a list of things that were better with you 

And I dunno, you're really the only one I can be fully vulnerable with. Like most people in my life have no idea what I'm actually going through. I keep up the happy girl vibe that I hope I give off. And that's probably why you keep getting too many double texts and missing yous and random snaps and such. Because come on, you're one of my very best friends. So I'm honest and open with you, sometimes painstakingly so. 

I really am trying. But it's gotta be all about the baby steps with me. And I mean it hasn't even been a week. 

And I'm not really sure why, but I've quite frankly almost become like passionate about you and flying. Like I want that so bad for you. Because obviously I still just want you to be happy. I just want myself to be happy too. But otherwise, I just seem to really want that for you, for you to be able to fufill your dream. Because you deserve it. 

I hope to see you soon.