and he was right

Ya know how I was pretty much completely spazzing about going on the radio show with my boyfriend? All that worrying was for absolutely nothing. It was actually pretty fun. Ellen was super duper nice and really likes to talk so yeah I really didn't even have to say all that much. But it was still a cool experience. I even listened to myself this morning :P So as usual, my boyfriend was right and it was totally fine. But of course everything is fine when I'm with him :)

So then after the show we went out and got pizza and it was like an interesting experience. Cuz it was like normal dinner time so a lot of more like adults were there too. And then it was me and him being all young and kinda couple-y. Like I felt like some of them were almost watching us and stuff. But I actually liked that experience. We keep having more of these like real-world experience. Examples being: getting pizza, going grocery shopping, being alone, dealing with getting rid of a cat. I dunno that was kinda a lame list but I just feel like we keep doing things that we will do together later in life. And we are so comfortable with each other. Like it's never awkward. And that is so amazing. Whenever I am with him, I feel like everything is going to be ok and nothing will hurt me because he will protect me. And even when I'm not with him, he does his absolute best to still make me feel like that. I know I have talked about this before but it's just so hard to explain just how lucky I feel. Like I honestly don't think there is a better guy out there. We are just such a good couple! I know that sounds all like cocky and such but I really do think it's true. We are so cute too. We just are! And I am so looking forward to JOBS and spending all that time together. And I am so looking forward to giving him my little project thinger. And I am so looking forward to him getting his license. And I am so looking forward to us going on our separate trips. And I know that that one sounded weird but I think it will be a cool experience to be in completely different places than normal at the same time and to tell each other all about it and to be excited for each other. I think it will be good for us. Not that we even need any help! This time is so much different and better than the other times and it's still hard to explain. But it's just like we fit together so well. And y'all are probably tired of listening to me rant about this yet again so I'll be done :)

gato

So to those of you that have never had pets, this might not make all that much sense to you, just so you know.

So my mom and I just got back from taking 2 of our cats to a shelter. One of them was the cat I got for Christmas way back in 2nd grade. So it was sad everything but I honestly handled it way better than I thought I would. I though I was for sure going to bawl but I didn't even cry. Yet anyways. I might later but so far, I'm actually doing pretty good. Much to the surprise of my boyfriend who was totally ready for me to be a mess. But I wasn't. And I'm ok. And it feels good. Now I just gotta get through tomorrow :P wish me luck! <3

hear me on the radiooo

So my boyfriend does this little radio show thinger once a week and I feel like a bad girlfriend because I honestly don't know much about it. And now he want's me to go on with him this Friday. I guess him and the other girl he does it with are bringing in their JOBS dates... which means I kinda have to... But I really don't want to. He started off asking me if I'd do anything for him... and I would.... But he doesn't get it. I'm not interesting. I'm not like him, I'm not out going, I can't just strike up conversation with people. Not to mention the fact that this girl and her date are COMPLETE STRANGERS to me. I don't care if she is "super easy to talk to". I will feel uncomfortable and awkward the whole time. Oh and the radio is public. Everyone has access to it. I mean thank God it's not live but still. I don't think he gets how it won't be easy for me. And I really really wish it would be easy for me but I'm just not like that. I wish I was, but I'm not. And maybe I'm over thinking this, but ya know what, I really might not be. I wanna make a good impression on people but I don't see how I can if I feel out of my element. But yet, maybe this will be good for me. Maybe I can push through how I usually am and take on the personality of an outgoing, easy going, girl. Or maybe I won't even have to do that and she really will be super nice and we will click and I'll have a new bestest friend :P Or maybe I won't even really have to say all that much but when I do, I'll be super charming ;) haha now I'm getting a little carried away. I dunno it really probably won't be as bad as I first thought it would be. I mean I am already warming up to the idea. I think I will either just barely get by with it and not say much, or I'll start off slow but then warm up to them and be better and really, either one should be fine. And if I completely suck, that will show my boyfriend for springing a random radio on me :P