wow

....I really miss us. I know I say that all the time. But I miss so much about us. I miss our naps and cuddling. I miss always getting shot gun when we were in a group because everyone knew that that's my spot and I get to hold your hand while you drive. I loved that. Holding hands while you drive and squeezing them to say I love you. I loved that so much. Or when you would put your hand on my knee while driving. And when we would both be singing along to a song we would be so happy. We were so happy so much. I miss the occasional coupley thing at school like when you would wait for me or help me with my stuff. I miss just hanging out with you and loving each other and being happy. I miss all the little sweet things you would do for me. Seriously I miss all the little things so much. We were so great. Really great. Please see that soon. I feel so lonely.

concert

So tonight was our choir concert. And we did really good. Like seriously we crushed it and I was happy. But Z went. And I was really hoping to see him afterwards... but then when I saw him, he was hugging someone else and didn't see me and I kept walking... I felt so alone on that walk out. I had to hold back tears. I miss him. I miss us.

good

so I think yesterday was actually a good day for him and I. He even said that I am an amazing girl. And then later he came and visited me for a good 45 minutes probably. And we were goofy and talking and stuff. I was happy, we were happy. He told me he loves me multiple times. Blah seriously we are pretty great together. And then later I asked him if he misses us now and he said yes. We were really having a great day... maybe we are making progress. I hope :)