It's so cold out here, in your wilderness

 Ya know, honestly, part of me was wondering if I was loving you out of habit. And maybe since the new year, that's been kinda true sometimes. Loving you because that's what I'm used to. But then I remember how I would smile stupidly at my phone when you'd send me a smiley face or how my heart would skip a beat when I would see that you're calling me. And I know that that isn't out of habit, that was real emotion. We'd be fools if we didn't think that time and space can affect things. But I know that you still give me butterflies. We can fall into patterns and habits, I know that. But you still can give me those warm fuzzy giddy feelings, but only really when things are reciprocated... It's hard to love someone who doesn't love you back

With the lips of an angel

Don't ask me how I am because I don't know. I can't tell what I'm feeling and what I'm hiding. 

But I miss you. It's already been 2 weeks since I've seen you, and I don't know how long it'll be until I see you again. I just want things to be okay, to stop being weird