date night!

Seriously, last night was great. It went so well. I can't stress that enough. It was pretty much amazing. He picked me up and we went out somewhere special for dinner. That was really good! We talked and joked and flirted the entire time. I love it when he really smiles at me and his eyes just get that look in them and it makes me feel great. I dunno if y'all really know what I meant but yeah. And then when we were going to the  car, I said I was cold and he put his arm around me as we walked. Then at the movie theater he put his arm around me right away and we held hands and during the gory parts he would hide my face with his hands because he knows I don't like that stuff so much. At one point, he got my attention and so I looked at him and he said he loves me and kissed me. Then we held hands while walking out and once outside he put his arm around me again and held me super close. Then we held hands in the car while he was driving to the fro yo place. After that we sat in his car in a parking lot (don't judge, it's actually really cozy and intimate) and cuddled and we both ended up sleeping for a little bit. When his alarm went off, he held me even closer and kissed me and told me he loves me so much. We held hands the whole way home too. We were just like a couple. We acted like a couple the entire time. Anyone on the outside would have guessed we were dating. And I loved it! So much! Seriously the best night in quite a while. And today he said that he really liked last night. So that's good. But yet nothing has changed. Well actually something has changed, I guess we now have a 70% chance of getting back together :) So that's really good. At this point, I think we will, it's just a matter of when. Because he has told T that he does want to, just not now, and I know how he is with me. He wouldn't have gone on this date with me if he didn't want to. Another thing, he talks about future things too. Like how we are going to watch big brother together again this summer. And like how at the movie, during the previews he would make comments about how we should go to that one next. And even like post-high school stuff. Because he said he would like to live with me and T and N. So clearly we have some future, it's just a matter of what that entails. Guess I will just have to wait and see

snow day

That's right. It's April 11th and today we had a snow day. That's crazy!

Anyways, yeah things have been pretty good lately. I've gotten goodnight I love you's and a couple times I have gotten a "pet name" and just yeah I feel like things have been going really well... to the point where I kinda think something could happen this weekend with us but at the same time I kinda doubt it. But yeah he thinks that our date tomorrow will be fun and great and such and I am so excited! Like seriously! And early he said that he doesn't want me to hold back with like asking him anything because we have come a long ways and that continuing forward would be good and to do that, there can't be any holding back. So maybe that's foreshadowing? But like I said, I don't expect anything to happen... But yet, the past week for sure, it's really been like when we were dating. He has even randomly told me he loves me. And maybe this means something but it very well might not, but he wore the sweatshirt I gave him for Christmas yesterday and he hadn't done that since breaking up. So who knows. I'm just gonna continue to go with the flow :)

oh hey

Soooooo.... I got the job! :) I'm so excited! Hopefully I start training soon, I wanna hurry up and start working!

Aaaaanddd.... Z and I have a date Friday night... And its really a date date.. He's gonna pick me up and take me out to dinner to celebrate me getting a job and then we are gonna go to a movie and probably get some ice cream and then who knows what :) And I am really excited for it! Oh and I asked him if he was excited for/looking forward to it at all... and he said very much. So yay for that! Things seem to be going really well for us lately :) and I love it :)

Oh and I got my prom dress this weekend and I absolutely love it! So much! Life has been going pretty well lately!

10 weeks

so yet another week has come and past. 10 weeks now... that's 70 days... well more than 2 months.... I think we have come pretty far in the past 2 months... I mean we even hung out for a bit last night and he said things like I love you so much and forever and possibly a some day but not 100% sure I heard that one right... so yeah.... I guess at this point I really want to know how much longer.... Because honestly, I would probably wait forever for him, I just don't want him to abuse that.