2014

I truthfully think that 2014 will be a great year. There are so many big things coming up! The trip to New York is pretty much right around the corner and graduation is not long after. Hopefully Nashville happens this summer and in July I'm going to Virginia Beach for a family vacation. The last one before I move out. Especially since it's happening less than a month from move in day. Which I reallyyy can't wait for! Then college starts right away and my 19th birthday will come up quick then. Then along to the first holiday season while not living at home, which will be weird. It's sounding like it's going to be a very eventful, fast year, but it's going to be so great. Best year yet, that's my prediction. Don't get me wrong, 2013 was good. But life is really going to start this year. Kinda at least :P the independence really kicks in this year, even though I can tell my parents have been giving me a lot more freedom since I turned 18. Which is probably good for all of us. Gives them a little bit of a chance to start letting go before I move out and it lets me start figuring out how to be responsible too. The tighter the leash, the farther they run when they are set free. I'm glad my parents really know that. It keeps the whole relationship I have with them stronger. I am thankful for them. Anyways, it's gonna be such a fun year. I really can't wait to travel and then living with my best friends will be such a blast, most of the time, anyways :P I'm really excited for this year. But I wish time would slow down. 2013 was seriously so fast. I can't believe it's been a whole year.

Oh hey(:

I just realized that we have spent quite a lot of time together in this past week. And it has been pretty great(:

Crash

And honestly, that was literally the best that could have happened with that situation. Grady and I both didn't freak out and you stayed really calm too which also really helped. I mean, you were fucking freaking out on the inside, I could tell, but on the outside, you stayed very calm and reassuring. You didn't even seem mad or pissed. And that really helped Grady and I. I mean I still almost puked in the ditch afterwards and once we started driving, I was praying for a solid 5 minutes. But no one got hurt, like not even a bruise which is honestly so great. Like I had said, it could have been a million times worse but it wasn't. Which was what I kept telling you because like I said, I knew you were freaking out on the inside. And you kept making sure Grady and I were ok. I probably got asked if I was okay like a dozen times. You were seriously pretty great about the whole thing. And you keep asking how I'm doing but I've been worried about you. But at the same time, thank you so much for doing all that you could to get away from that sign. I keep seeing it in my head and honestly I was probably 6-12 inches away from getting hurt. I'm not trying to freak anyone out, I'm just thankful that no one was hurt. That's why if those tweets that Mack said about karma being a bitch and not feeling sorry for someone, if those were about her not getting invited and then you crashing, I will cut. Like I said, I was fairly close to possibly getting pretty hurt. That's not something you bring up when you're bitter that no one wanted you there since you are annoying and whiny. And speaking of cutting, I seriously feel so bad about that :( but hey, we had fun there for a while ;) it sucks that we couldn't spend the night together. But I know that you really needed to go home because of your car. Hopefully we get another chance at a sleepover soon

2013

You know, I honestly think 2013 was probably the best year yet. I feel like I matured and grew a lot as a person. I think I've come out as a lot better of a person. And I'm happy. I'll be the first to admit that I spent a fair chunk of the year all sad and probably depressed but I made it through. And I'm happy with life, for now at least :P I've learned a lot. I've self improved. I've had a lot of really fun times. I've gotten closer to my best friends. Zach and I have come a far ways and we have gotten so much closer. I've also really grown into my own skin. I usually feel quite confident. And I don't know, I just feel 18, young and free. This is probably the most that I've ever felt like myself.

proud year

I'm really proud of the year I had. 2013 is one to be proud of :) I came a far ways and grew up a lot.

percy

You are honestly pretty great. Just the fact that you made the point that you liked it by naming it and then giving it a purpose, that meant a lot. You are so sweet :)

Not as good

I think this year, instead of my winter issues coming around as being sad and down all the time, I think it just makes me more upset when I get upset. If that makes sense? Like I'm still generally happy but when I get upset, it's kinda bad. And I feel bad about it. I really do. 

I hope New Years is really fun. I want to have fun with you.