Taking it out

I meant every word. I'm not going anywhere. I'm sticking by you, through thick and thin. I love you

wrong

So whatever is wrong has been going on for quite a while now. And it sucks. Talking to you is just different. And it's hard because I really want to know what it is. I'm not trying to make it about me, I'm just saying, it kinda hurts me that you won't tell me and then tell Taya and make her promise not to say anything. It sucks. Especially today, right away, it was really obvious that it was really bothering you and I couldn't do a damn thing.

not in the mood.

You're not my mom. Stop with the lectures. I'm really getting sick of it. All is does is just make me upset at you too because you just tell me I'm wrong. It doesn't help. Stop.

first snow

snowed for the first time of the season today. and life is still good :)

Slipped again

So I know I slipped today. And I am sorry for that. It always sucks when I do. It kinda makes things weird with us too. But in the end, good did come of it. I don't want to have the wrong impressions or ideas about what will happen. So knowing your side is really helpful. Nothing has changed. I know you will need your time after it before you would want a relationship again. That's just how you are. I was already thinking it would be a couple months after a break up before we would ever be together again. I guess the only thought that scares me is that you will find someone else again and not make it back to me. Again. But no one knows. Just have to see. And I guess I don't know if you mean that in that time we could go on dates and start to move back to that. I want that but in the end it's all up to you. :P. And gah I don't want to over think anything, but by saying you couldn't answer that question, didn't you kinda answer it? Like if it would have been a no, I feel like you could have just said that. But like I said, over thinking is bad. It could go either way. Blah I need sleep. It hasn't helped that I've been sleep deprived all day. That always makes me weird. Anyways, good night. We still good. Life is still fairly good. 

Hdingd

My heart is pounding. I wish things could be easier.