I played nice.

It's been a long fucking day. 

Throw up.

I was doing great today until that. Words hurt. Did you seriously think I would do something mean to Sena? When I said I wasn't sure how I was going to be around you guys, I meant that hopefully I don't end up crying in some bathroom tomorrow. Because I sure as fucking hell am crying right now. And right now I really don't know about tomorrow. I might end up throwing up. That's how bad this has gotten. I just want it to be fun. Ive been trying to get in a fun moodset so that I'm for sure okay. But that came crashing down. Guess we will see what morning brings. 

But now having said all that, I'm calming down and hopefully sleep will come quickly and my sunny disposition will return upon awaking. I just want to have fun. It's senior jobs. Let's have a blast 

nervesss

Not gonna lie, I'm kinda nervous for tomorrow. So there's that.

this week

And so begins the high level of stress that will continue for the next few days. I work the next 2 days and the 2 finals that I do have, are going to kick my ass. And I'm worried that I won't finish my painting in time and it's just crazy. So if I'm cranky, I'm sorry, it's not you, I'm just internally panicking.

And then there's jobs. And I'm not sure how I'm feeling about that. Like I want it to be fun and I think that parts of it are guaranteed to be fun but then there's the rest of it that I'm honestly kinda nervous for it. I'm just unsure of how it's gonna go and I want it to be great and I have things that I want to happen but yeah. I guess if anything, I'll have to keep reminding myself that in the end, it's just one night. If it doesn't go as well as I want it to, or just doesn't go well at all, it's just one Saturday night that sucked. It'll be okay. And there's still prom which is a much bigger deal anyways. And I still really want to go to prom with you but yeah. Still a far ways away.

fate

That was seriously the craziest thing ever. I had made my cheesy comment about hanging out if fates align... and sure enough, they did align. That took such perfect timing, it's insane. I guess it really must have been fate :P I'm still having a hard time wrapping my head around how incredible that was. Neither of us had any idea at all of what the other was doing and then we ended up at the same place at the same time. Crazy! :P And I had a pretty great time tonight with you. Watching a movie was fun and then pool was a good change up. I had fun and thank you for teaching me. Somewhat at least :P It was a good time :) Like I said, it was nice to do something different. It was just a really great night :)