Don't underestimate my ability to bitch slap a boy who "tries something" unwelcomed at tree town. Like wtf, where did us "having something good" come from???? We are literally just friends and I feel like I've been trying to signal that. Ugh. Like it actually kinda makes me uncomfortable around him. Because I don't know if he's going to try something or if I'm going to give off the wrong vibes or what.
But otherwise, this weekend is going to be kick ass. I'm so excited that we are doing this and that it's finally almost here!!
True life, I've kinda been feeling out of sync with my feelings. lol at that sentence and its oxymoron. But like, most of the time I'm in a pretty good mood. Which is good, don't get me wrong. But like it's almost as if I'm just too mellow. Like sure I still get heated bout some things, but other things don't make me feel mad or upset or such when it seems like maybe they should. And I've kinda always had trouble figuring out the whole missing someone feeling. I don't know what I'm really trying to say with this.
So I've kinda wanted to say this for a while but I wasn't sure how to word it without sounding like a full of myself asshole. But I think I've got it. I think I get along with guys pretty well. Because I feel like boys like me. Like they take to me well. Like they like me. This is where that full of myself asshole bit comes into play. But I dunno, I feel like I can be a bit of a flirt. Which sounds silly to actually say, it actually sounds gross lol. But yeah, at least guys that I somewhat know. I'm not so good with new boys. Which is lame because I want to meet some new boys. My sea needs more fish haha.
Because while if you were to commit to me tomorrow, and I'd probably take that and run with it, that doesn't seem like it's going to happen anytime soon. Or maybe ever. So it would be nice to find someone new.
