for the first time....

So last night. We did it. And no, I'm not trying to just make it seem like I'm talking about sex... I really am talking about sex. We had sex. For the first time. Don't worry, we used protection and we were classy about it. And ya know what, I really don't regret it. At all. I honestly couldn't have asked for a better first time. And I do think we were ready for it. I didn't have any of that whole hating him or not wanting to be touched or any of that bad stuff. I really did still want to be close to him. Actually right after getting dressed all I really wanted was a nice long hug and that is what I got :) I don't think that it changed anything with us either. We are still us. Maybe even a little closer. It wasn't awkward at all. And in a way it was like a weight lifted off of our shoulders. There is going to be no more wondering when we are going to do it for the first time. However, we both decided that we won't do it again for quite a while. Because we don't want it to become a whole like "oh hey I'm here let's have sex" thing. It is suppose to be special. And it will be.

On a side note, I did awesome on my finals! I got 91% on my English final and that is the lowest score I got. 100% on two of my finals! and 98 and 99 on the other two. So great <3

So yet again, life is great! <3

yay :)

finals are done! And they honestly were all really easy. Like legit. I hardly even studied! So yay! And now I am sitting at home while all the little annoying kids still have to be at school <3 so like I already mentioned, I'm gonna hang out wiff my boyfriend later(: Pretty dang excited! things might happen ;) but yeah I'm just in a great mood so I just wanted to share! Life is gooood <3

love him(:

so basically yesterday my boyfriend and I were having... a tough time and that was mostly going on when I was just laying in bed before getting up. That then lead to me being like all depressed and out of it alllll day. Like I didn't even wear make up to school, that is how much I just didn't care about school and such at that point. Cuz as sad as it is, that was my first time wearing zero make up to school since like 7th grade. So anyways we got better for a while but I still had that just out of it feeling and so I got upset slightly at him right before going to sleep. And then this morning I woke up to the most amazing text messages ever. And they were from him(: And like damn! They were so wonderful and honestly they were some of the most heartfelt things he has said to me in a while. My mood was instantly over the moon and it was a great way to start off my day <3 So basically yet again I'm gonna mini rant about him :) Like I love him so much. Like more than I even ever had thought that I could. Especially at this age. But just everything about our relationship is great. There is not a single thing I would change. We are so wonderful and he is so wonderful <3

so finals are tomorrow and Friday. Not looking forward to it but yet I don't think that any of them will be all that bad. So that's good! And then Friday is only a half day so I might go over to my boyfriend's house... again :P And we will probably just sleep and watch paranormal activity 3! Because we HAVE to watch that! I hope he gets scared and jumps at something while I sit there completely still. It's so funny :) It also feels really funny when like we are sitting and holding each other and stuff and then he jumps and I don't. It's kinda like earthquake! Haha so yeah :) life is gooooood <3

Jobs :)

So last night was Jobs and it really was amazing :) of course that morning and early afternoon I was pretty stressed out but then once things really started going, I had no problems. It was all so fun! Pictures here and then me and my boyfriend went over to my best friend's house where we were going to do more pictures and then didn't :P then to our other friends house where we all did couples pictures and then an all girls picture and the all boys pictures and the whole group pictures and then we ate. I guess I think my biggest regret of the night is that we didn't really do pictures with like just one or two other people. Like I didn't even get one with my best friend! So poo! But then after that we just went to the place the dance was at. We parked and walked a bit to get into the building. The walk back to the car completely sucked by the way :P and then we stood around and waited for Grand March and then we did that. Then more waiting and then finally we got to the dance. And that was pretty dang fun. There was some slight drama but nothing that ruined the night by any means. It actually seemed to resolve itself too. And of course people watching at a dance is pretty fun and also can be some what perturbing :P there was quite a bit of grinding... and not gonna lie... I was partaking in that a bit too :P and then by about 11:15 I would say, some of the couples in our group started going home. So we left not too long after that too. We had an awesome ghetto date at the mcdonalds drive thru! I wanted my chicken and I didn't care how sketchy it looked. And then after that we went back to my boyfriend's house... where we were planning on maybe doing some stuff.... But almost as soon as we got there, my best friend called to say she was on the way over. Mood killer! Then we all stayed up and watched a not-so-scary movie. That was good but by the end of that, I was getting really tired. So we all started getting into our sleeping arrangements. My boyfriend and I slept on the floor on a cushion thinger. Not that either of us slept all that much. I'm guessing I got 4 or 5 hours of sleep. But yeah(: that was really nice :) sleeping together like that. Of course it would have been better if we were ya know in a bed and alone but it still was great. Like really great. Like can I just go live there? Haha ;) so yeah then in the morning when I was truly looking really cute, we just kind of hung out for a while. And that was fun too! And in the end, I spent almost 24 hours straight with my boyfriend. I think it came out to being about 21 hours. And yeah! :D so happy! It was so much fun <3