Tis the Season

I honestly love December. Christmas time is always great. I do enjoy getting people presents and wrapping them and giving them. The whole process, I just want to revel in it. Except when I get to worrying about if you will like your present or not :P you really are kinda difficult to shop for, you know that? Anyways I'm going tomorrow and hopefully I stop second guessing myself and you like it. I'm glad we are doing gifts this year though. Even if it isn't a lot, it's still something and it would have felt weird to not do anything. I don't care if your idea is lame, I'm sure I'll still like it :P I like lame :P You mean a ton to me and we have been doing really well so we should do presents :) We've come a long way in the past year. But at the same time, we have some what circled back. Except I think this year is better. We don't really fight anymore. Which is good :) I think we have sort of found a rhythm. It's kind of a weird rhythm, but it's been working recently.  I mean, I do still want you and us and all that, pretty bad actually, but yeah. I... kinda think that.... we will eventually get back together... and that when we do... it will be 10 times stronger than anytime before... I don't want to assume anything but there is a decent part of my heart that feels that, believes that. Butttt any who, back to December. I was completely serious when I said that standing outside and just watching it snow at night is one of the most magical and peaceful things. I have a very distinct memory of it. Another one of those sights is sitting in a woody campground in Yellowstone, and looking up at the stars. Magical. I hope I can share that one with you some time :) This is such a cheerful time of year. And Christmas break is coming up soon and hopefully we hang out a lot :P And T, we legit better have a girl day with Lorissa too! We haven't had one since like October! And oh lurd is this year going by so quickly! We are only a month out from being halfway done with senior year! And that includes our break. It's crazy! It should slow down :/ I really want to enjoy the rest of senior year. But I am also really looking forward to August. Move in day will be the best!! I am so freakin excited! I know I kept saying we were pretty set on a couple different places now, but this one is legit. Jacob Heights it is! I think it's a perfect combination of what we liked about summit and what we liked about huntington. It kinda sucks that it's gonna be more money but oh well. I think we will be really happy there. Plenty of time for cuddling will be possible :P Approximately 249 days and 11ish hours until we move in! That's still a long time away and a lot could change before then. But not a lot has changed with us in the past 6 months, if anything just gotten better so I mean, things could also just pretty much stay the same. But I hope situations will be right on August 20th so that we can spend that first night and who knows how many more, sleeping together. Truthfully, I have no idea how often we will. Just have to wait and see pretty much. I know I have a fair amount of lonely nights. Then there would at least be the opportunity to be together. Another thing that I have thought of, I don't know how often all of us will text anymore. It will just be different because we will be together a lot more and sleeping in the same house and just yeah :P I just mean like it would kinda be weird to text you goodnight if you are just downstairs. It will just be a change. Well this got considerably longer than what I had intended :P I had opened this post not even totally sure what I was going to say :P Guess I was just in the mood to talk... via blog :P I'm thinken tomorrow is going to be a good day. Between some serious shopping and whatever is going tomorrow night, I'm excited :)

Distant or...

I dunno, I guess it's just kinda seemed like you have been a little distant ever since Monday night. And idk if you are just busy or actually are or what. I don't know what's going on. That's just what it has seemed like and it kinda sucks.