I can see it

Now before I start, I just want to say that this is my safe space and I can say what I want. Don't worry, it's nothing bad or mean or anything like that, I just don't want to get lectured. 

So Alex said something interesting a couple nights ago. He said that he thinks you and Sena aren't going to make it to jobs. I just thought that was interesting. But it's just one person's thought so I'm really not going to read into it. It just, I dunno, made me think a little bit. Anything is possible. 

...I can still see us being married one day. Maybe I'm crazy, but I can still see it all in my head. Except.... Now it almost seems better than it used to. We have the best friends thing going for us now and so it just seems better. But again, maybe I'm just crazy. And it's getting closer. It was one thing when we were 15 and thinking we could really make it but now I'm 18 and it's getting closer and more real. But we aren't even dating and I'm just spinning this all up in my head. But talking about it now, I really see it. I can see it all. And I want it. 

Good again

Everything is pretty good right now :) you and I are really good, t and I are really good, school isn't too bad I suppose, things for college are starting to come together. I am happy. The only thing is that I still really don't know what to go to college for. And going off of my favorite classes doesn't really help because they are art and that is such an unreliable job field. So I dunno. I have a feeling I will end up settling on something and then 10 years down the road I'll go back and get another degree. Which isn't a bad thing really. I'm hoping I'll be able to get through college without racking up too much debt.  I have savings, my parents have savings for me, who knows what my grandparents will do for graduation gifts, I'm gonna apply for a few scholarships, and I'm going to work throughout college. But college and living expenses are a lot. Tuition, books, supplies, housing, food. All necessities and all are pretty expensive. So we will have to see. 

Just sayin

We have a complicated relationship. 

But I'm not complaining :)

None

It really is true, whenever things are doing well, I don't blog that much. And things really have been going well recently :) I had a really great weekend and I am hoping that this weekend will be like that too :) I really don't have anything to complain or vent about right now :)