Dress blues

I guess the timing is never going to work out right for us. 

When you're having fun?

Isn't it crazy how time flies. September is already half over and it feels like it's just begun. The weather has even become suddenly very fall-like. But shit this year in general has flown. It's crazy that it's almost 3/4 of the way done already. January doesn't feel like that long ago. 

There's a room in a hotel in New York City that shares our fate and deserves our beauty

Do you ever have nights where all you do is mess shit up so you're just like okay, I need to just go to bed? Because that was me tonight. Holy crap I feel worn out, spent, exhausted. This sleep is about to be amazing. 

On a fairly different note, isn't it crazy that people can kind of grow apart but can snap right back into place like the distance never happened? I wish that would happen with Lorissa but idk, I honestly don't even know if we are really friends anymore. Like that sounds terrible but I haven't talked to her in months. Asides from the occasionally snaps that are just a response, not actually talking. But like she doesn't try at all. Taya and I, we would share funny stuff in the group message, respond to things, try to reach out, but like 85% of the time, she wouldn't so much as send an lol in response. And yeah, I do miss her, I miss how is three stuck together thru high school and made it the best we could. Like the friendship us 3 had was the best part about high school. Those are some of my favorite memories. And I get its different now. But she doesn't even try. She wouldn't even tell us when she was in kato for the weekend. I mean anymore, I feel like we've just given up on trying. Which is sad but it's the truth. No one has said anything in our group message in over a month. And yeah we are all busy and have different schedules but shit dude, it doesn't take that much time or effort to contribute. I used to think we would all be in each other's weddings, and while that's still probably a couple years away from even really being a thing at all, idk if I can even picture that anymore. But like how do you be good friends with someone you see like twice a year. And doesn't text you back. I mean it was fun to see her at tree town, but when are we even going to see her again? Maybe for Christmas? If she even tells us that she's home. It's sad but idk what more I can try to do. She literally completely flaked on me about the Twins game back in May, whenever that was. She just flat out didn't even bother to tell me she couldn't. Or changed her mind. Or whatever actually happened. Oh well I guess. I tried. After that, idk

I just need to go to bed. 

If you need me, I'll be where my reputation don't proceed me

I'm just kinda having one of those times when you just want to hide from the world, ya know?

I also can't help but have a like "this is it, this might actually be the end" moment. 

And I'm just really stressed out. I actually can't wait for school to start so that I don't have to be a work slave anymore. They have me doing all sorts of shit that I did not sign up for. 

I said I wouldn't do it but I did it again

Uffta it's been a while. Not much to say I guess. It's pretty much just been sleep, work, relaxing for a few hours. I mean the nose piercing is new. It's been a week and our store director at work just noticed it today haha. So far I'm liking it. The healing and worrying about bothering it too much and all the cleaning kinda sucks but at least I'm already a week into the 3-4 ish months it'll probably take for it to be all healed up. Though I'm still not exactly sure how you're supposed to know that haha.

Hot tub nights have been good. It's been a while so maybe it's due time for one. Not supposed to while nose is healing but it's not like I'm submerging it and I feel like our hot tub has to be reasonably clean. And I can clean it right away afterwards. 

Tbh kinda already excited for fall. Sweaters and leaves and brisk mornings and warm afternoons and coffee. Fall is just great and it sucks that it's so short. 

You and I were fireworks that went off too soon

I dunno how I'm feeling about things. I feel like I'm torn between feelings haha. Like I'm content with how things are right now. But sometimes I find myself really wishing they were different. It's like I'm happy but idk it's like I want more or something is missing. Which can suck :-) timing also has a lovely way of getting in the way sometimes. I feel like time practically slips away from us sometimes. Tricky schedules lead to maybe next week which is then well maybe next week and they blur by and before you realize it, it's been almost a month. It sucks 

We're the wild ones

Uffta it's been a while. I guess nothing has really changed lately. Asides from vacation, it's kinda been a routine of not all that exciting. I garden, go on walks or get on the treadmill, sit outside or lay out, go to work, watch Netflix. Which is nice, I enjoy all of those things to some extent at least. Weekends are more exciting for sure. I dunno, it's just different to find accomplishment in finishing a tv series, abrupt tan lines, hitting 10,000 steps or more, and taking care of a garden. It's so leisurely haha. I just kinda feel like I want a challenge. Maybe that's why I was all for doing as many hikes as possible while up north. I had a couple days of over 8 miles walked/hiked with a lot of flights of stairs climbed as well. It was honestly great. Love hiking. Love up north. And by that I mainly mean the north shore. It was gorgeous. And honestly I didn't really care that much for Duluth. I liked grand marais much better. It was still neat to see the different geography and such up there. 

But yeah, not much has really changed so there's not that much to say. I'm doing really well most of the time. I dunno I wish we could like talk and hang out more than we do but idk can't do a whole lot about it so it's probably best to not stress over it. People have a way of drifting apart and then coming back together. It's just a matter of circumstance and timing. Every so often we have a moment that like idk rekindles the connection we have. Those are nice