Resilience

So basically my attempt to, for lack of better terms, booty call you was a fail. I wasn't trying to be mysterious, I was just trying to make it more fun than let's bang :P I wanted it to be more ladylike and playful. And so this morning I was feeling a little defeated. But I think I bounced back pretty quick. There's always a chance to try again and it was a learning experience. Can't do anything about it now so may as well move forward. I like having that resilience, even if it didn't come right away. It feels good to not dwell on things. And I'm definitely comfortable enough with you to not be like ashamed of my failure. Especially when I explained the moves/lines I was trying to use on you, you seemed to appreciate my effort. :P I thought it was a decently valiant effort :P some cooperation would have been useful :P but there's always next time and now you actually realize that it could be possible that I'm booty calling you :P if we never got back up and tried again, we would never get anywhere 

Miss the beach

Being back home, I've gotten bored, lonely, sad. Life was perfect at the beach. Idk I hate being emotionally needy but sometimes I just am. Hopefully the days get better

Studies

Simultaneously excited for college but nervous of the big choices up ahead. You know I'm quite indecisive and this is by far going to be the biggest decision I make this far. So here's to hoping that I end up really liking urban studies. I think that I could, I mean it sounds cool. I'm not going to force anything, but it would be comforting to find something to do, an end goal to work towards. But it's probably going to take both first and second semester to get the exploring really going. Talking to you about it did help. You always get me to calm down about it and that's what I need. 

When you were over yesterday, I realized that there won't be many more times that we will be here. With about 3 weeks til move in, chances are we will hang out here only maybe 3 more times? That's so weird to think about. Ever since 8th grade, it's usually been either my house or yours but soon it will just be whenever at our house. I dunno, there's a lot of memories in this room. I'm curious to see how living in the same house will change the dynamics of our friendship/relationship. It's gonna be a big adjustment for all of us. Hopefully all goes well and it brings us closer. It'll definitely be interesting. We will be learning a lot about each other. Right now it seems like I know you really well and I feel like I have a decent idea of what it will be like to actually live with you but I think there will still be things that take us for surprise. Also pretty curious about how often I won't be sleeping in my room. It'll be interesting to see what kind of routines we all get into. I'm so excited; it's actually pretty close now. Summer is flying by

I'm backkk

That was the perfect first night back home. I missed you so much :P it was great, you were great. I already miss you again :P more nights like this pleaseeee because I loved it and I love you. Gah you make me feel so great and special. I can't wait until we can just go to sleep together instead of you having to leave. It's getting so close!