short little update :)

so I did in fact find my dress! and I got it right away. And it's really cute and I really like it. I am excited for my shoes but I still gotta go get those some time so yeah :)

another thing about JOBS... afterwards, usually a group of people all sleepover at someone's house. And it's sounding like it will be at my boyfriend's house. There will only be like 6 of us total and I think that is good. A lot of people would get to be annoying. So yeah.... that means we will get to sleep together that night. And I mean literally sleep! :P It will really be fun. So my parents better let me go!

oh and this morning when I went to school, it was 12 degrees. That's right. 12. And there is still no snow. If it's gonna be cold, there should at least be some snow.

JOBS

so there is this girls-ask-guys dance at my school that is in January. I'm not sure if I have actually mentioned it before. But basically, as a sophomore, it is the first real formal dance we get to go to. So it is pretty much a big deal. And so far.. while I'm excited for it.. I feel like I'm maybe not completely letting myself be excited for it. If that makes sense? Like I know it will be fun but it's still a far way off and maybe I just like know that there is the possibility for it to get semi ruined so I don't want to get super excited and be let down? That was kinda a lot right there so hopefully you got it all :P

I know my best friend is all excited for it but I dunno. I'm just kinda ehh about it yet. I guess I'm almost kinda nervous about it all. Cuz I just want ever thing to go right.

Now I told you that it's a girls ask guys thing. So me and my best friend had this whole elaborate asking plan that would have been really sweet and really cool. But basically things with that fell through so I was left to ask by myself. We had gotten stuff for that other asking already so I really had to give that to him. And there were these cards that basically told him about our whole plan that failed. That other asking was gonna be so special and that asking made it a big deal. How I actually asked was quite toned down. It was after we had spent an amazing day together, just me and him. And at the end of it we went to a gravel road and watched the sun set. And all I did was hold his hand and ask if he would go with me. And of course he said yes. Once I dropped him off, I gave him the stuff and told him to look at it later. And at the time, I was happy with how I asked. It was special and sweet but it was also simple and private. But now.. more girls are starting to do their askings... and they make it a big deal and it's really cute and special and now I have almost started to wish that I would have asked differently... it's kinda too late now though......

dresses....

I'll tell you more about what this occasion is later but there is a dance coming up... which means I need a dress. And I realize that this might kinda be a lame topic for a post but yeah.

so far... I've kinda been shying away from going dress shopping... And I'm not totally sure why. But.. even though I know I will be with my best friend, who I can completely trust... I am still self conscious. And it's just yeah... But now I realize that I really do keep pushing shopping away and away and now my best friend seems to be going on without me... And I really don't blame her, like at all, because I have been difficult about it... but now I'm starting to feel left behind. I really do wanna find a dress. But yet I kinda have this little voice in the back of my head that is saying that I won't find something just right... this whole situation has kinda gotten stressful... And now I just want to do it. I wanna find a dress that I love and that I feel good in. I want to get it over with but yet I know that it can and probably will be fun. so yeah....

one quarter of the way

so school is now officially 1/4 of the way done. which seems ridiculous. It's like there is no way we have been in school that long but I guess we have. Time seems to be going by really fast and with school, its like dang. We really aren't that far away from graduating. just 11 quarters away. Yes, it's still more than 2 years away but I feel like those are going to be the fastest 2 years of my life. So far, high school has been really good for me. I know my best friend would say that freshman year completely sucked but I really don't think it really did. I think we are all growing up so much and figuring out who we really are and I think it is great. Now I really didn't mean for that to get so deep but oh well. Maybe it made this short little paragraph more interesting :)

oh darlin, don't you ever grow up <3