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so there is this girls-ask-guys dance at my school that is in January. I'm not sure if I have actually mentioned it before. But basically, as a sophomore, it is the first real formal dance we get to go to. So it is pretty much a big deal. And so far.. while I'm excited for it.. I feel like I'm maybe not completely letting myself be excited for it. If that makes sense? Like I know it will be fun but it's still a far way off and maybe I just like know that there is the possibility for it to get semi ruined so I don't want to get super excited and be let down? That was kinda a lot right there so hopefully you got it all :P

I know my best friend is all excited for it but I dunno. I'm just kinda ehh about it yet. I guess I'm almost kinda nervous about it all. Cuz I just want ever thing to go right.

Now I told you that it's a girls ask guys thing. So me and my best friend had this whole elaborate asking plan that would have been really sweet and really cool. But basically things with that fell through so I was left to ask by myself. We had gotten stuff for that other asking already so I really had to give that to him. And there were these cards that basically told him about our whole plan that failed. That other asking was gonna be so special and that asking made it a big deal. How I actually asked was quite toned down. It was after we had spent an amazing day together, just me and him. And at the end of it we went to a gravel road and watched the sun set. And all I did was hold his hand and ask if he would go with me. And of course he said yes. Once I dropped him off, I gave him the stuff and told him to look at it later. And at the time, I was happy with how I asked. It was special and sweet but it was also simple and private. But now.. more girls are starting to do their askings... and they make it a big deal and it's really cute and special and now I have almost started to wish that I would have asked differently... it's kinda too late now though......