1/9/2014

You've been kinda down on and off the past couple days. Like something is wrong and you don't want to tell me and go back and forth between being okay and not. I just hope you are okay and that this doesn't turn into another sad month for Zach. I mean, I don't know what's going on. And just like before, I'm sure you have a reason for not telling me and that's okay. I just wish I could help. It sucks seeing you sad. Or upset or stressed or whatever you are. Maybe I can try to cheer you up this weekend? :)

Wish I could talk

Sometimes I just feel really broken. Like right now. 

I've had the worst body image today than I've had in forever. And then I fished for compliments which was the stupidest thing ever. I was just wanting to feel better but i know you hate it and it just made me feel like a pile of shit. It was stupid. And I cried about it. A lot. Mostly because I want to be good enough and whenever I do something dumb like this, I feel like I'm not good enough. And that sounds like such a broken thing to say and I don't want to be broken, I want to be strong. It's just been a hard couple days, hopefully things will look up now. 

It gets rough

It's one of my hard nights. 

I do understand your side of this. I actually do. It's just the not knowing that gets me going. I wish I knew if it was more likely for us to get back together than not.