It's so cold out here, in your wilderness

 Ya know, honestly, part of me was wondering if I was loving you out of habit. And maybe since the new year, that's been kinda true sometimes. Loving you because that's what I'm used to. But then I remember how I would smile stupidly at my phone when you'd send me a smiley face or how my heart would skip a beat when I would see that you're calling me. And I know that that isn't out of habit, that was real emotion. We'd be fools if we didn't think that time and space can affect things. But I know that you still give me butterflies. We can fall into patterns and habits, I know that. But you still can give me those warm fuzzy giddy feelings, but only really when things are reciprocated... It's hard to love someone who doesn't love you back