I gotta light this town on fire or leave

Ya know, you are still all I want, trust me when I say that. But I'm going to start thinking about you and caring a little less every day. Until I get to the point where I can treat you the same crappy way you treat me. At least I'm gonna try. Because I don't deserve to be ignored by someone who is on their phone most of the time, except when working. Especially when I'm still giving my all, but yet most of the time I'm just trying to talk to my best friend. But I just get ignored. I'm just saying, the "I'm busy" excuse doesn't work when you snap back but don't text back. 

At least I'm gonna try, or maybe just pretend. Because I still see you all around me. I still can't get you off my mind. You're stuck there. I can't just move on. And that's the shitty part. I'm getting left behind but don't seem to be able to move forward myself. They say time heals all wounds, and I mean it's only been a week, but I've never been able to move on from you. That's my burden

I very well might regret all this in the morning, but right now, I'm mad.

But just like that, I really don't know that I'll be able to do that. Care less. I'll always care so much. Too much. That's just who I am. I care too much, and I'm too stubborn. I can't just give up on something, and especially not on someone I really care about. And especially not on you. 

So maybe the days will get easier. Or maybe I'll just have to pretend that they are.