And so I hope this space works out for the better. I'm glad I'm able to show you that I'm not always a crazy lady :P it's just hard not knowing how long it'll be. I've kinda given up on it being today. Which sucks, because earlier when I saw you messaged, I got a little excited. But yeah. And that's okay, this will be good for me too, I think. But at this point, I'm kinda wondering about it in a timeline of days and not hours. But who knows, maybe I'll wake up to a message. Not getting my hopes up though.
So goodnight, sweet dreams, love you. You have no idea how much I want to actually say that to you.
Honestly, I don't know why I keep coming back to this general topic. Probably partly because I want you to be happy and successful and partly because I want to see you more often again. But anyways, I hope you go back to school in the fall. Even if you decide not to do aviation, I think you could be good at business management or something similar. You said you liked Econ and you're really good at speaking in front of people and enjoy that too. I see there being multiple options for you. And I still want to help you get there. Like I'll even take college algebra with you, haha.
So I have yet to say anything about this to anyone, but depending on how things are, I think that after graduation, I may look for a job elsewhere. Get out of south central MN. As much as I love it here, if there isn't anything, more specifically anyone, keeping me here, I think it would be a good time for me to leave. Probably not permanently, but at least for a while. I didn't move away for college and part of me regrets that. But the other part, the main part, has loved living with and remaining close to my 2 best friends. And it would be hard to leave my home, but it might be an experience I'll need. I see my history, and almost more importantly, our history, everywhere in this town. So basically, if we aren't a thing, and I haven't found someone else here, in 2 years, I'll strongly consider jobs elsewhere. But that's still 2 years out, and clearly a lot can change in 2 years. Even 1 year seems to change a lot. You probably don't remember this, but almost exactly a year ago, you said some of the sweetest things to me. Less than 2 years ago you said when you're comfortable, you'd try to propose on a Saturday. So where is the next 2 years going to take us?
And now it's leap day. An extra day. And I would love to spend it happy with you. But we shall see
God damn I miss those great moments.
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