addiction

perhaps I have a blogging addiction? But really I'm just putting my thoughts into actual visual words so does that mean I'm just addicted to thinking? ...............well that was weird :P

So uhm I guess I had been looking forward to seeing you for a little bit tonight.... we have been doing really good this week so I'm curious what it would have been like... I think we would have had a lot of fun and enjoyed each other's company. So it sucks that you can't. I get it, you can't really go against what your parents say but yeah it still sucks. Maybe tomorrow? But you're always busy so who knows. Maybe next Friday? I'm gone next Saturday and Sunday..... Maybe Wednesday night? I don't work then but I dunno about you. We could study for AP? I dunno. Seems like it is going to be forever before we see each other just you and me again. It's... idk... it makes me a little sad.

I tried to have a really good day. And I am still trying. But earlier... With T and Z texting me and the some of the stuff Z said.... Like things don't translate well over text. I thought you guys were serious. I'm not kidding, I almost started crying right there in the middle of math class. That really put a damper on things. .....I am really glad you talked to me after that though. You saved yourself :P I was actually fairly upset. That's why I didn't talk to you right away. But yeah you were nice and I can't stay mad at you so yeah. I'm over it.

Then what the hell just happened at Nick's? He was all idk weird so me and L leave for a bit and then they leave too? Uhm yeah thanks for ditching us. Spending more than an hour in Walmart waiting for you guys really is not fun. I mean we made the best of it, but still. Like what the hell. Come on.

Seeing you tonight just would have been really great.

P.S. I still love you

P.S.S. I miss you