and I'm already blogging again...

So I just went back and looked through my blog posts up until a little more than a year ago... a year ago almost exactly, I was so happy.... Like I seemed really happy... And now I'm not really that happy... and it makes me even more sad... I want to be that happy again! And another thing... while I want time to go by faster, I wish there was more time, like for Z and I to talk... because between school and him working and homework and stuff, we really haven't gotten that much time to talk and every night after he's asleep, I still have stuff that I wanted to talk about... so that sucks.... And I just.... really want him to tell me he loves me... this is the longest time in a really long time that we haven't said that.... But yeah I read the post from last year's Jobs and other ones from this same time and the one from last year's Valentine's Day... Last V-Day he took me to see The Vow and before breaking up, I had been thinking about asking him to take me to see Safe Haven this year. But yeah that more than likely isn't happening. And last year, in my post, I had been really gushing about how great of a night it had been and how happy I was........