This is one of those moments that's got your name written all over it

Lol ya know what, imma pat myself on the back. For crying way too many tears but still being fine. For dying a little bit on the inside but smiling and cracking jokes on the outside. For still being able to look in the mirror and genuinely like what I see. For going through a personal hell but still keeping going instead of giving up. For hating situations instead of myself. I'm proud of being strong but also sad that I've had so many strengthening experiences. Like its great to be strong but it sucks to have your heart broken more than once, by the same guy. It's great to be able to wake up every morning and see it as a fresh start, even after breaking down the night before. Every morning and every day is a new chance for great things to happen. Maybe one day you'll come back to me. And maybe that day will never come. And I have no idea which one is more likely. 

I simultaneously want to see you and really spend time with you and have a great time and just not talk for quite a while. I don't know which is the better option.