Figuring

I would think that if it was just anger, you would be over it and we would be past it by now. Anger is short lived. So that leads me to wonder if you are hurt? Or disappointed? Those feelings linger longer. That would explain why this is taking more time than I thought. But then again, I have no fucking idea what is going on. 

I kept seeing you today. And it honestly sucks. I just hang my head. Because my other options are looking at you and you look back with a not nice face or you don't look at me and I hurt. Just looking at you reminds me of what is going on and that hurts too. And part of it is also shame. I'm hanging my head in shame. I don't know why because I don't know why you are upset, but I feel shame. 

I just want to share my life with you again.