So last night I gave in and texted him saying I miss him... and a while later I got back a "goodnight I love you" which honestly has thrown me off. Because today he still hasn't texted me... this morning I said I still miss him and more than an hour ago I just said hi. So I don't get what is going on. He still cared enough to text me once and even include an I love you which I seriously love getting. And we have talked a few times in person too. Like today we did a kinda flirty poking thing. But then he won't text me. So tonight after our concert (oh joy, because I felt so great after the last one. not.) maybe like 45 minutes to an hour after it, if still nothing, I am going to confront him and ask him why he's not texting me. And we were supposed to hang out tomorrow night but I don't know what he thinks about that now. I really really really really hope we do. We need to connect again. I miss him. If he just hasn't really wanted to talk, he could have just said so. It would have been better than this. I hate all this guessing. Why are boys so dumb sometimes?
And T, I know you have said that I need to give him an ultimatum. But I just can't. Not now at least. Because even though last I knew there was still a 75% chance for us, I don't think I would win and I couldn't stand losing him. I just want us back. Seriously, we have something special. We were so great and happy together. I just hope that stands up to everything and is enough. He needs to realize it.
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