visitor

I really love it when he comes to visit me. Like this afternoon. I told him I was having a bad day and so he came and visited me. Which is really sweet. So obviously he still cares about me. It was a good visit too. I had a really good time. I mean he asked me what I was thinking and I told him he doesn't want to hear it and he said he does so I poked him and said I want him... And he didn't really say anything about that. But that's okay. We laughed quite a bit and seriously couldn't keep our hands off each other. Like we kept poking each other and doing silly stuff like that. And it ended with an awkward car hug, and "I love you", and a kiss.... Gah I want us... but I think I am doing a better job of letting go and leaving it up to fate and God... If we are meant to be, we will be, we will find our ways back to each other... And at this point, I think it will happen, its just a matter of when... I mean it's already been 5 weeks.... But I have a feeling it will be quite a while before we would get together again... And before coming to see me, I asked him if he misses me at all and he said "sure I do" sooo yeah... Blah.... Maybe some day.