okay

So he forgave me, in case you were wondering. And last night even ended with a "goodnight, love you". And today... I've been doing okay :) starting yesterday afternoon when he talked to me again and forgave me, I have been doing a really good job of just talking like friends. So that has to be really good. And I love talking to him. Even though now it really is pretty normal, nothing exciting. I dunno I hope I am actually starting to be okay... like I don't know if that's actually what is happening or if I'm clinging onto a hope for us so much that I think things are okay. I don't know it makes sense in my head. Maybe I am starting to really let go... I mean there is this Sara girl but according to both T and A, it's nothing like that. I mean just like I don't know how I feel about that. Like I mean it bothers me but I have no right to get upset over it. I don't know. But I hope it just gets better from here. I hope he sees that we really work and are great for each other. I hope so. But ya.