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Grr I love you. Seriously. So much. Last night we ended up talking and such for about an hour in person. And it was great. I knew it was going to be great the moment I got into his back seat and he put his arm around me right away. Don't judge, it's not as sketchy as it sounds. And yeah... it was so great. He's so great. I really want us to be us, be together. He said he misses us too... but that he's trying to move on... which isn't as bad as it sounds, I mean I am trying to move on too... But it was like grr then why aren't we together? And he said that he will always love me "whether we get married and have a shit ton of babies or go our separate ways and never talk again". He said I will always hold a special piece of his heart. Which I mean is really sweet and I love that, but I don't want to think about the possible future of us never being together again. I really don't want this to be the end. Oh and get this. Y'all know about how this week his been really ehh with us and half the time it seemed like he didn't even talk? Well he got me something while in  Myrtle Beach... and it was actually thoughtful too. I seriously love it. I was really surprised. It shows that he had been thinking about me... like he really didn't have to do it, I wasn't expecting it at all. So blah. I mean I love that he did it, I love being with him, we still have such a good time together, but he says it just takes time. That I need to be patient. Blah. Last night when we were together it did seem like he does want to be together again eventually. Which is good. And then today I asked him if he thinks its possibly that we will be together by Johnny Holmes and he said "ya maybe" so I think that that's really good too. And he said stuff last night about going on and living my life and I think I am doing that. I mean I still have really been hanging out with people and doing stuff and yeah. I can't believe it has already been 4 weeks. I mean obviously parts of it has dragged sooooo slow but looking back now, wow did they go fast... I hope that is a good thing... So far, the longest we have ever been broken up for is just under 10 weeks... so it will be interesting to see how things are when that 10 week mark comes along. I am really curious to see how the next 4 weeks go. And another good thing, he said that I have been doing a good job these past 4 weeks. So that was really good to hear. I just have a hard time being patient so hopefully this idk. Hopefully time goes pretty quick and hopefully we get back together relatively soon... I honest have no idea how long it will be. I just really hope that we are together by the end of June, which I think is realistic. But who knows.