feeling

I hate feeling like this. So sad and heartbroken. I hate feeling like I have no control over anything. I hate not having anything to look forward to. I hate feeling alone. I hate how I don't know how to feel better. I hate feeling rejected. I hate how I really want something that I don't know if I can ever have again. I hate not being able to ask about things. I hate not being able to feel better. I need you to save me. But I know that you won't. And I hate that. I hate not being yours.