well here goes..

so most bloggers will start off with some background info. guess I may as well too.
it's almost the end of summer before my sophomore year of high school. joy :P 16 in just over a month. so excited for that! other than that... I may as well just jump right in with my ranting. so please, bare with me :)

guys=STUPID. seriously, do they even make sense to themselves because girls sure as heck don't get them! they are selfish. they lie. they give up things for no apparent, important reason. and I just. dont. get it. they really are so immature too. oh and they can be so amazingly nice and sweet when they want to be and then BAM! they turn around and act like dicks. dicks on pms. awesome, right? they are so fudge crackerly hot and cold! like dang! make up your mind! boo them.

so you are probably wondering where all that came from. well. we all know that teenage relationships tend to hit some rocks once summer starts. but that honestly didnt faze me. I knew we were strong enough to not let summer break us. and don't get me wrong, it definitely had its challenges but I still thought we could make it. I was fairly confident in that. until the middle of july. he got weird. summer seemed to have gone to his head. he didnt want us anymore. said he couldnt be the person he wanted to be to me because of his busy schedule. but ya know what? I honestly didnt care. just knowing that i was his and he was mine was good enough for me. but i guess not for him. and the part that really had me for a twist. we had just seen each other not that long before it and things were FANTASTIC. we were so dang happy! and honestly.... that day was the happiest i have been for quite a while. that day had so much pure, lasting joy. nothing since has come close. sure ill be happy for a while, while hanging out with friends and such. but eventually it began to sink back in. the feeling of being so ALONE. so unwanted and not needed and just simply alone. and who can be happy when they feel like they are facing the world all by themself? high school is hard. but he made it sooo much easier to get through my life and to ENJOY it. like i said, I was so happy. he made me so happy. and im sure right about now you probably think it is really pathetic that a guy has that much control. and i simply dont care to hear it. oh and another thing. since its summer, we dont have to see each other. i havent seen him since the weekend after the 4th of july. and it sucks. cuz i feel like im forgetting him; forgetting us. and i think it makes it easier for him to just push this all aside and move on. school starts in about 2 weeks. we will just have to see how that goes.

he said "I wanna see you again. but I'm stuck in colder weather. maybe tomorrow will be better. can I call you then..?"