I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

You know, when we spent New Years together, it was really great. We started off the year good together and I was thinking 2016 would be a really good year for us. But yet not even 3 full months in, and I have no idea how we got here. Things really do change in the blink of an eye. If I had known that that night after the casino was going to quite possibly going to be the last chance to really spend time together, I woulda fucking jumped right on it. But I had no idea what was coming.