this post took entirely too long

So the talk we had had a couple nights ago was really good. It was honest and real and just good. I am really glad that I can see your side of it. I was really proud of how well I responded. It could be a step towards us honestly. It's a what if. I was able to see that. But towards the end of that conversation and then after last night, I don't know where you're mind is at with that now. It's up to you if you think you need to do that. If you don't think you have to, then you most certainly don't have to. I really was understanding where you were coming from. But it did sound like you already kinda knew how it was going to end and such. It kinda sounded like you had been starting to question if you actually wanted to do that. I...actually felt pretty close to you. That convo made me feel close to you. Because it was honest and real and... it seemed like you were leaning towards me and us and I really loved that. And I really debated saying that because I don't want to say too much on here because I know T reads and I don't want to be saying anything that was meant for just me, because it's our business. So hopefully this is all okay. :P This took me so much longer to figure out what to say because like I want Z to see it but not necessarily T, ya know? I don't mean that in a mean way, I just don't want to make personal business into other people's business. Ok I just need to be done :P