well it happened again. And I'm not as ok with it as I was when it was just a thought. I know I'll be fine, if I made it through last time, I sure as hell will get through it this time. But I dunno. It might just be surface happy for a while. I might even just muddle through the rest of winter. Tread water til it's over. But yet I'm strong so maybe it won't be long for me to really be ok again. I'll just have to see.
I'm really going to miss us. Like a lot. :/ We've gotten so good and so close lately. It sucks that things have to be different now. And I really hope that it'll be over by move in day. I was really looking forward to that with you. Move in day is 195 days away. So about 6.5 months. Considering you guys only lasted like 6 months last time, I find it unlikely that you will make it til move in day. Given our history and last time, and how we have only gotten better since then, I dunno I just don't see it lasting. And even if you do make it til move in day, I mean we will be living together, I don't think you guys would last long then. But that's just me and who knows what will actually happen. I'm not trying to be a bitch or anything, I'm trying to use some logic. And you said someday. Now obviously you have no idea what will happen, but you basically said you think you guys will break up. Guess we just have to see how that all goes. And you did say that it's a step towards us. So that's good. I can't wait for us.
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