this is

I really wish we were spending the summer together. Last summer was so great. Seriously I wish this summer could be like that so much. I really miss you. I really miss us.



Sorry for being kinda pathetic and saying that a lot.



*deep breath* but this has to happen first. I know that. I really do. It just sucks. And I wish we could be together now. But this has to happen first. And we probably won't be together at all this summer. But I mean really you never know. Just wish it was us this summer. But like I said, you never know. Summer is fairly long. 3 months. A lot could happen in 3 months. Summer always changes things and honestly, not trying to be negative about your relationship, but seriously who knows if you guys will make it through the summer. And I mean... on a bright side... we still have a really good time together. Even if it is a little weird. We have gotten to be much better friends now. So then if/when we date again, I think that would be really good. Then we would have the best friends and boyfriend/girlfriend thing going on. I don't know that we are best friends yet. But we are really good friends. And just yeah, it would really add to our relationship. Because I know we weren't ever really that good of friends before and that was something you at least said that you wanted to work on. I think we are 200% better friends. That would help us be the strongest we have ever been if we get back together. I think we would communicate more too. I think I would be more understanding and appreciative and go with the flow. And I feel just pathetic for still saying all this, like I'm trying to convince you. I'm really just saying. Just letting you know. I think we have a future. Just because we have come so far and made so much progress, I couldn't imagine not trying again and seeing if we can really work now. I really think we would work and be great and really happy.

If you believe in horoscopes... I always read the ones for my friends too... and for yours, for July, it said something about how you should make the first move and go for it on the 20th... we will be in Geneva on the 20th. So I thought that was interesting. Guess we will have to see if it actually knows what it's talking about.
:P

Big Brother starts in like 2 weeks and I'm pretty excited for that :P Oh and we better go to valleyfair sometime during the rest of June :P

...when you had whispered in my ear that you love me... always... that made me feel really great. I love you