I just.... way back then, I wish you would have said something to me. Because I was dumb and didn't know what was going on and I was just being stupid. I could see I was sad. I couldn't see that it affected other people and that I was about to lose you. If someone would have just pointed it out, I would have seen it and I would have stopped. Maybe I just didn't think it was that big of a deal that I was sad and thought eventually it would go away on it's own. But I could have done something about it. If I had actually tried hard, I would have been able to get out of it and been better. Things would have gotten better. But I was dumb. I didn't know. I couldn't see the consequences of my actions. If I had known how serious things were getting, I would have stopped. I needed a slap in the face because I was too dumb to do it myself. I should have opened up my eyes and seen what I had and stopped being sad because what I had was great. But partly because I didn't do that, I lost what I had. Maybe I should have asked you for help. Maybe we should have just generally communicated our concerns better. Both of us. I wish I had had the chance to be better. If/when there is a next time, I will be better.
I promise that it won't happen again this winter. I won't let it.
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