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am I pathetic?

but at least I finally spoke my mind, kinda.

when I said I didn't know, I meant I really just don't know what to do. About the situation we are in. About anything really, when it comes to you and me.

And when I said I was scared, I meant that I am scared of doing something wrong and permanently destroying things. And I am scared for the future. I'm honestly paralyzed by it. I'm scared things won't work out right.

And now thinking about it, you saying we will watch big brother together does actually help quite a bit. Because it means we will at least hang out every week or two for a while. And that will really help this summer. ...............summer used to mean getting to spend more time with you, and now it means spending a lot less time with you. And that sucks.

I guess if anything, living together after high school will change things with us, probably for the better.