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Yeah I get he's on vacation and trying to get away from all of this. But idk I still wish he would seem happy when talking to me. Because it makes me wonder what's up with us. Like how he feels about me and us. Because I more than anyone know how fast someone can change their mind. I just.... still have a hard time believing this is real... Like I seriously thought we would be together forever... I never thought I would be in this situation again. It's hard. And for a while I can forget about it and pretend everything is okay but then reality crashes over me like a wave. And it sucks.