change but not really

BLAH Like you know we are doing pretty decent. I mean we are better friends, we have been talking in groups, we aren't fighting, I'm not as boring as I was :P We are doing pretty well. And you know that. And you know how bad I want a second chance. And honestly I think I deserve one. But no. "maybe someday but not right now" it's so frustrating. I never thought I would be in this situation again. It sucks. And it's like he hardly cares. And UGH how long is a while? I really hope I get to see him tomorrow but idk. I'll probably be surprised if we can. And idk how it would go. I miss him and want him and he doesn't miss me and doesn't want me. And that stings.