I'll miss you in the June gloom too

Being bored out of my mind makes me feel like I'm actually out of my mind... Not like crazy, but just not myself. It's like I've been drained away from myself. If that makes sense? I'll have nothing interesting to say because I'm so bored. Which sucks. I want to have good conversations. I don't want to feel unlike myself. I'd like to think that I'm usually fairly energetic and happy and such and I'm just not those things while bored. I'm bored so I become boring. Which is so lame. I hate it

But I got to turn it around and I actually accomplished some things. And then I was excited to actually like talk to you about more interesting things and you were asleep :P oh well, tomorrow is still there 

Which I'm quite excited about by the way. It's been almost a week since I've seen you (for more than 2 min). I've actually missed you quite a bit. Look forward to seeing you again :) I try to stay in that more positive mindset but it can be difficult. I mean I really would have liked to see you today but it didn't work out and the day was still decent. Hopeful tomorrow will be great :) 

...I guess I'm just.. Anxious about what things will be like once she moves in. I'm having a hard time imagining it working out any other way than us not seeing much of each other, which really makes me sad. Way back before everything changed, I had really been looking forward to the summer of us living together and now it's going to be pretty much the complete opposite of that and I think I'm still trying to cope with losing that. I feel like I don't have much to look forward to right now. Like at all