boom

well that was certainly unexpected. Honestly did not see that coming. Like at all. And when I said sorry, I really did mean it. I know you didn't really believe me but I meant it. I know you really liked her. So yeah. I dunno I think I'm still processing. It was so sudden. It changes things. I mean it does but yet it doesn't. It's just different. I dunno I always thought this wouldn't happen until like January maybe. That was like the earliest I was putting it in my mind. But now it's just here and I dunno what will happen. Nothing will for a while I guess. I know you want to be single for a while. So then I guess I'll probably put January as my guess. If we do. I mean that's not even a for sure. I don't know where your head is at with all this. And I mean it's all up to you so my timeline really means nothing. I guess I don't know what to think. And I don't mean that in a bad way, not at all. I'm just processing. Like I said, I think it's because I thought it would still be months before this. And now there's actually like a chance but I don't know if you will take it or not. Maybe that's it too. Gah seriously, this sounds so depressing but really I'm kinda excited. But it has to be controlled because I know you aren't going to just come back to me. It's complicated and I'm tired :P Don't read all that much into this :P