Blunt

So no us this school year. That's what you so bluntly stated. And it sucked and kinda hurt but honestly it wasn't that surprising. I had a feeling that something like that was coming. And before you had said it was unfair to ask you if you think we will get back together at some point because you had a gf. But now it's not fair because you can't see the future? It's not like I was asking if it will for sure happen. It was pretty much just an opinion question. I was just trying to gauge where you are at with things with us. Like if you would even want us again. I don't want to be niieve and think you want us eventually if you don't. Does that make sense? And I dunno like I could see us just being friends for ever with nothing ever changing but I could also see us getting back together and getting married one day. Such opposites. But that's life. Maybe I kinda need to back off for a bit. It's been a little weird lately. But gah 6 months is so long. I don't know what's going to happen between now and then but idk if I can just be a fuck buddy for that long. I want to be something more. But you've known that for ever now. That I want us. And I don't know what you think. And I kinda want to say that I hope something happens before the end of the year that changes your mind but you were so blunt and strong with your statement. And before, you had said that once you were single, we would have a chance. But you've made it clear that nothing has changed so the chance is still zero. 

But hey. Bright side. At least this summer will probably be super awesome then. 

I don't even know if I want to post this.