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So I have made the decision to show my boyfriend my blog. Although I'm not actually showing it to him, I'm just giving him the website for it. But really it's not gonna affect how I blog. My blog is pretty just my way to be honest and get everything out. And he pretty much hears all of that anyways so thus, no real reason to change. I'm gonna keep doing it like I always have. I kinda think it will be one of those things where he will want to check it out and see what kinda stuff I say and then he will start to just not look at it that often. I think. That's another thing. I like to analyze things and try to come up with how people are thinking and feeling about things. And I tend to do that about him somewhat. So I guess maybe that might bug him for whatever reason? But that's just like my thought process to try to understand things. And I will fully admit that I am probably wrong a good deal of the time. I dunno that's just how I deal with things and on a blog, it is easy to just keep typing and typing and typing whereas in a text, you get cut off at 160 characters. 160 characters is usually not nearly enough for when I am really trying to figure things out and express my feelings. I'm just that difficult :P I guess I just hope that he doesn't think that this is pathetic. My blogging. And all the venting that goes on with it. But yeah anyways I'm letting him know on Valentine's Day so it's not for a little bit yet. And I think he will really appreciate it. And he should. Cuz I mean this used to be my way of just saying everything I gotta say with only one person I know that actually sees it. But yet I completely and fully trust him so I know it is safe with him. And like I have said, he knows pretty much everything on here. Except I might just be a little more detailed on here. The only thing I can't really talk about anymore is present ideas for him :P Cuz sorry dear, but I'm not gonna make that mistake :) So hopefully this brings us closer. I mean I have gushed about him several times so that should at least make up for any questionable things I may have said. Notice how I just said that I MAY have said them, not that I for sure have said them :) So really I'm kind of procrastinating ending this post because I feel like there was something else I was about to say but I really can't remember what it is right now. FRUSTRATING. okay I just remembered :) So yeah Valentine's Day... I'm really looking forward to that :) Like spending time with each other and being close and celebrating our love and all that :P It will really be nice. And I'm actually super mega looking forward to giving him his little picture project I made him. It turned out super amazingly awesome. I am seriously so proud of it. I put a lot of hard work and time into it and now it is pretty much perfect. It is also really sweet and mushy and I dunno I just really like that about it :) Like for Valentine's I'm really just generally going mushy. Cuz I got a sweet hard and I'm gonna make him sugar cookies too :) I guess that might have to do with how this is like the first Valentine's I've really ever done anything for anybody. In 8th grade, we were still so young that I didn't even really know what to do for it. Like at all. And then 9th grade we weren't even together :P until the day after :P so now in 10th grade, I can actually do something and I'm really excited to do something and so yeah. Pretty much love Valentine's Day this year(: I'm pretty much more excited to give him his stuff than to see what he's gonna get me. That is how freakin excited I am to show it to him! <3 but ya know hopefully he does get something decent for me too :) so yeah this post turned out to be wayyyyyy longer than I thought it was going to be. Like wayyyyy longer. So yeah I'll be done now :) And basically every post lately has ended with some comment on how much I love my life and yeah that is going to continue :) Life is pretty great!! <3