Basically I'm just stressed. And I know there really isn't a reason to worry yet but ya know my period should be coming anywhere from like yesterday through like tomorrow night. And yeah I'm just paranoid. I mean I'm sure it will come but there's that stupid little voice that keeps saying "You had sex. Your period isn't here yet. You're pregnant" and I just want to shut that voice up. Cuz I mean really. It is quite possible it will just come tomorrow and that would be completely normal. I'm just paranoid. Because I know that if the worst thing did happen, my life would basically be ruined. So yeah. And stressing about it doesn't help either.
Aaaaaannddd then, to top it off, my day has been a roller coaster. Because first, I was excited and looking forward to the day and seeing my boyfriend and I even was like oh I'll dress up and wear a skirt and he will like that and I will like that. And then, he says he isn't going to school. My previously almost sky-high mood instantly got slammed into the ground. It was honestly pretty disappointing. To be looking forward to something like that, and then have it taken away really sucks. And then to top it all off, I was already kinda stressin about you know what so I was like oh well I'll see him and hopefully he will help and make me feel better and more relaxed and stuff. And then no. That didn't happen. And that sucked too. But whatever I really don't want to keep complaining about it. Cuz it isn't even really his fault that he stayed home so yeah.
Oh and then last night my boyfriend and his friend went out together to get Valentine's presents for their girlfriends. And after it, my boyfriend told me what his friend got his girlfriend... a lanyard and some candy... and I pretty much told him that she probably won't like that as a Valentine's present. Cuz I mean that does kinda suck for a V-Day gift. Birthday present, yeah sure that wouldn't be a bad idea. And then he makes me think that they got matching gifts. And so I felt bad and disappointed and such. And then he goes and tells me that they didn't get matching ones, after really making me think that they had. So. Not. Fair. So yeah. Cranky.
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