the possibility

so tonight. there was the possibility that my boyfriend could have slept over. I'll explain.

it was a long shot from the beginning, so I'm really not all that surprised that it didn't end up happening. But my dad had this thing he was going to go up north for like 4 days straight this week. My mom was really considering going with him, just to get away from everything for a little bit. And before you go thinking that leaving us home alone for 4 days would be irresponsible, don't. We would have been at school most of the time and we are old enough to take care of ourselves and things around the house just fine. Plus, I can drive. It's the only way it really would have been able to work well. So we really could have done it and been just fine. And I honestly think it would have been fun. Not just because it would mean no supervision, but it would be cool to see how independent we really can be. It would have been an interesting experience.

So yes, I have 2 siblings. So that makes things more complicated for the potential sleepover. But we got things figured out. I would have had them go spend the night at a friend's house so I could have had some alone time so I wouldn't go crazy from them :P It woulda worked well too if everything had gone right. I coulda easily gotten him here and gotten him outta here before anyone would have had any idea.

Now, don't go thinking I'm some slut that wanted to have sex tonight. Because we honestly wouldn't have done that. We had both agreed that we would have wanted to keep it as innocent as possible. We wanted our first sleepover to just be nice and sweet and loving and innocent. Just having the experience of sleeping with each other over night was all that either of us wanted at this point. It would have been a great opportunity for us to become closer and stronger as a couple. It would have been absolutely amazing.

Obviously, this didn't happen. Turns out my dad opted out of going on that business trip. So no sleepover. And while I'm kinda sad it didn't happen, I'm not disappointed. It was a long shot and our first sleepover will happen some time in the future. It's just a matter of time.

I wish you were here right now <3