so there is no way that any of you guys know about this, except for you T, but it's become really obvious that there is this pattern. With me and my boyfriend. Whenever we can't see each other very much, things start to get a lot harder. We start to not really be us anymore. And tension kinda starts getting high and stuff. All that leads to a break up. It's a pattern at this point. And now... with him skiing and therefore not really seeing me... there is the opportunity for the pattern to happen again.
Now while that does scare me... We are different this time. We both can feel it. I don't know how to explain it other than just saying that it feels different in the best way possible. so I still have faith and I still believe in us. This time can be different. We will take it day by day and keep on loving each other and we should make it through it. And honestly, with things like Christmas and JOBS and then the end of ski season and his birthday and spring break all happening at about the same time, I think there will be enough events that we are looking forward to together that that should help out at least a little too. We will just have to see. And even though it does worry me a little that the pattern could repeat yet again, I am feeling really good about us at this point :)
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