how good?

so have you ever had like those moments when you wonder if you really truly are good enough? or pretty enough? or fun enough? or reasonable enough? or interesting enough? Ever felt all those things at once? Now combine that with PMS, really bad PMS where you feel like you have absolutely no control over your feelings. Basically, last night wasn't a good night.

I kinda think it had started earlier in the day, at lunch, when not only did my boyfriend flat out say he didn't like the outfit I was wearing (the one that I finally really took time and put effort into it) but then my friend was seriously all up in his business, like in a way that even I don't do at school. I mean those things kinda took me back but I was like no no it's nothing, try to keep having a good day. And so I just let it roll of my shoulders and brushed it away. But then later he brings up the lovely Victoria's Secret fashion show. It wasn't me that brought it up, it was him. And he was all really happy about it. And yeah yeah guys will be guys but it was like come on. I don't even mention the attractiveness of other guys to you and here you are practically drooling over this. So of course that brought me down some. And then he tells me to just get over it. Not the right move sir. He does redeem himself somewhat by complimenting me. But still... and then the whole time that the fashion show is on... he. doesn't. text me. So I'm just kinda like okayy going to bed now. Don't really care if I'm awake to talk to him later or not. But he does text me like right when it's done. And then I find out he was talking to his friend the whole time... a girl friend. Notice the space. And yeah yeah I'm completely past the whole thing of them being pretty close. But then he chose to talk to her that whole time and then didn't even want to talk to me later. Which isn't that big of a deal but with my super sensitive, over emotional state, I took it all wrong. I mean I'm over it now. And actually kinda feel bad.

......the past couple days have been a little tense with me and him.... and I think we are still really good... but yeah.... he did make sure his time spent with me today was really good though. So it's alright :) I'm just all paranoid :P