I just don't understand

...It's been a long time since the last time I felt this bad about like us. It felt like you were completely uninterested in me and  don't care about me. And like it fucking sucks to never see you on the weekends. Especially since I invite you over here almost every weekend and you have never once invited me over there. I really don't understand. It's like I'm not good enough. Second choice. I don't understand why you are being so cold, we were great just the other day and then all of a sudden today it went to complete shit. I hate feeling like rock bottom. These are the times I want to just run away from here. 

11:11 make a wish.....