I'm glad you aren't mad at me. I didn't think you had a reason to be because I told you about the subtweet thing and like I said, I'm not trying to bother her. I didn't even know she was seeing my tweets. And I'm just saying, it's her choice whether to see them or not. I understand how you're feeling about all this. That sounds cheesy but it's true. Hopefully tomorrow is better.
Tomorrow is also my first day back since my surgery. Kinda dreading it. I have been through so much in the past week and a half. It honestly had a lot of pain and suffering so I'm proud that I've made it through. I mean I'm still not pain free but it's minimal enough that even ibuprofen is optional. My stubbornness probably helped me get through this week relatively well. I can be a tough cookie. :P
And if it weren't for school tomorrow and how late in the day this feeling came on, I would probably not be sitting here at home. I'd be driving. Maybe west to the mountains. That's the thing about being 18 now. It would be so easy to leave by yourself because you could do everything yourself. You no longer need a parent to get a hotel room. I could just leave and sometimes that's really tempting. Admittedly this feeling comes around when I feel like I want to run away from problems.
I'm biting my tongue because I want to talk to you right now but that's probably not a good idea. You just need your space and hopefully I'll hear from ya in the morning.
Oh and I'm actually pretty tempted to just delete twitter off my phone because I'm pretty sure people are subtweeting shit about me and it's bull shit. If it is about me, stay out of my life, it's none of your God damn business. People involve themselves in too much and create unnecessary drama. So for at least the week, it's deleted.
I actually feel pretty lonely right now. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Fingers crossed.
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