Held back

I'm getting pretty sick and tired of being sick and tired. Yet another night of being in bed well before 10 because I can just tell that my body needs sleep. And I dunno in a way I'm actually kinda nervous about my health. The doctor said my organs are under a lot of stress with being sick for so long and I can just feel my insides in a way that isn't normal and I guess it's just got me freaked out. And New York is just a week away so I'm really hoping that I'll be doing better by then. I'm going regardless but I'm not supposed to over exert myself and I feel like the trip will do exactly that. It just sucks. I've never been sick for so long like this before. I'm usually fairly healthy so this is so different for me and it sucks. I just want to be able to do all sorts of stuff but I can't because I need to take it easy and I'm pretty tired. I'm sure my sick talk is getting boring but I don't really know what else to talk about right now. My main goal is to just finally get better. Because this really sucks. I hate that my body is holding me back.