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I think I've gotten more independent, even just in the past couple days. I can change my mood myself, without needing other people to. I mean, other people could definitely say/do things to affect my mood. But I can control it myself if need be. I've figured out how to make myself happy. And a fair amount of that comes back to just letting things go. Things that aren't worth being upset over. Choose to be happy. I'm proud of how I've handled myself lately. It's a great improvement. I've definitely come a far ways recently. I'm proud of that too. I have a good feeling about this year :) I mean, honestly, anything could happen and right now... I think I'm okay with that :) I mean, if we get back together, great! But if not, I'm still doing pretty good by myself.     ok and I'd be lying if I said that I'm not hoping this new-found independence and control and inner happiness didn't help things with us. Because... honestly... I think this is what I have needed this entire time. Even back when we were dating. I needed the ability to be independent and make myself happy. I depended on you too much for that happiness. I didn't really have the ability to just let the little things go. But I think I've mostly got that now. And I think it would make our relationship better. It would make any relationship better. Now I don't really know for sure what your reasons were for breaking up. But I kinda have a feeling that some of this stuff had at least something to do with it. I got upset over little shit way too often which lead to pointless fights and more stress for you and I depended on you for my happiness too much which put pressure on you. I was probably annoying and needy. And I'm sorry for that :/ But I guess I can't really do anything about it now. Maybe some day I will get to show you how I've changed and make it up to you. I hope I get that chance.